The Gold Is Gone

Check out my friend Jared Salvatore in this YouTube video.


The song is one of the many beautiful songs my talented friends have written recently.


the gold is gone- Jared

“Quit pondering on your problems for faith and courage will be your medicine.”

my great aunt jean died yesterday.

i've only met her maybe a dozen times in my life, but she always struck me as a genuinely wonderful person.

once, when i was maybe five or six, my sister needed an MRI so my parent's took me to stay with my aunt jean and aunt eleanor for the day. i sat in their living room in the dark for hours watching tv. i was so scared of them, i have no idea why.

late in the afternoon my aunt jean brought me into the kitchen, and taught me how to make sponge cake. we sat there for the rest of the afternoon eating cake and strawberries. it's my favorite memory of her.

every time i saw her, she would always say what a beautiful girl i was... and it makes me wonder, what makes someone beautiful to someone old? it has to be different than the way that men, my friends, even my parents think of me, right?

is it easy to see beauty in people when you've been around for a long time? Or does it make you feel like the world isn't such a beautiful place? maybe it's all in the person's outlook. i'm not sure. is it faith in people?

my mom sent me a stumble upon link to "divine caroline" today, and it was a excerpt about Faith.

the last line read...

“If you believe and faith comes and helps you, you will not suffer any longer. If it doesn’t work for you, you will be right back where you started. You have nothing to lose when you believe"

Amen to that.

summer time

So the first two weeks of summer have gone splendidly (I really like that word).

Still no job besides the writing center, but I am loving life more than I have in a long time. Having a great group of summer friends, a pool at my apartment complex, and nothing to do all day or night, has made time go slow for the first time in a long time.

Although I'm looking, I'm in no hurry to find a job right now. I have just enough money to get me through summer without starving. If I don't find a job, well, I'll live. Last summer I worked 40 hours a week for the whole summer. This summer, after such a stressful and not-fun year, I am really enjoying just finally having some time to myself.

Right now I'm tutoring, although tutees are few and far between for summer I am finding out. It's still good to get on campus and out of my apartment twice a week. I'm becoming increasingly afraid of turning into a recluse.

Ha.